Friday, July 6, 2012

Indecisive

Everyday it seems as though I have a new idea or dream I want to pursue.  They vary between wanting to being a homeowner, to getting married and becoming a mom, to traveling the world, to returning to school.  I am usually one to feel uneasy of the unknown, but it seems as though I am feeling more excitement than anxiety over this.  It's almost exciting to have so many choices and opportunities at my fingertips.  I don't think I will have this sense of freedom again for a very long time, if ever.  I want to embrace it, and for the first time in my life, go with the flow.  




The aboriginal culture I have been surrounded with the past (almost) year is one of the "go with the flow" attitude, with less structure.  At first when I was adapting to this new mind-set, which was very different than what I am used to, I felt frustrated.  I am beginning to see that maybe we all need to slow down a little and just be.  I'm not going to sit here and say that I will throw away my habits of list-making, organization and planning; but I want to try to embrace the opportunities that I have to choose from.  Be thankful that Dane and I can choose what comes next for us.  It's exciting to see what the next five years will bring!

I guess this is the beauty of being a twenty-something with no major commitments? 

That being said, I did just receive a repayment schedule for my student debt today.  Maybe I have more responsibilities than I think!